Being held hostage by my body is (sadly) not an unfamiliar feeling for me, as I’m sure both other migraineurs and chronic disease patients of all kinds can understand. The things I can’t do when hit with a migraine attack can include: reading, watching a movie, listening to music, leaving the house, tolerating light, moving without pain, and speaking properly. I also can’t be anywhere with fluorescent lighting for too long, or out in the summer heat for more than a few minutes, without fear of setting off an attack.
When I was pregnant nine years ago, I felt much the same way. I had a troublesome pregnancy, and there wasn’t much I could do except come home from work exhausted and sleep the night away. I also couldn’t work out (my heart rate got too high), relax in a hot bath, or indulge in a much-needed margarita or glass of wine.
Now, my husband and I are considering having another child, and even though I’m not pregnant yet, I’m already feeling the effects of what lending my body to another human being will mean.
My 52-year-old mother died suddenly and unexpectedly just a couple of months ago, and I’m not sleeping well. My anxiety levels are high, and my exercise routine has been interrupted. All of which equal increased migraine symptoms. But, my neurologist (understandably) won’t prescribe me anything for sleep, anxiety, or pain, in case I become pregnant.
I understand that this is one of the trade-offs of pregnancy, but I’m not sure how I will be able to survive the coming months (until I get pregnant) plus the 40 weeks of actual pregnancy without medication. I have chronic migraine with aura, and it is quite likely that my migraine attacks will only increase during pregnancy. It would be beneficial to know how other chronic migraineurs have managed to make it through pregnancy. Have any of you readers suffered through pre-pregnancy and pregnancy medication free? How did you do it? Would you be able to do it again?
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