I began taking magnesium and CoQ10 supplements a few months ago. I think they’re helping, but since I no longer keep a migraine diary it’s kind of hard to tell for sure.
Do we ever really remember our pain accurately? I think about childbirth and the pains of pregnancy. Do any of us really remember how nauseous and exhausted we were those first four months? Can anyone truly remember the extreme pain of labor and childbirth. I think not.
We remember that it was hell. We remember that we were tired, that we hurt, that nothing could make us comfortable. But, we can’t truly describe the intensity of the pain. If we could, nothing could ever talk us in to having a second child.
I think migraines are like that, too.
I can remember times when I couldn’t get out of bed for days because of my migraine. I can remember laying on the floor, gasping in pain, crying. But, I can’t really remember what a “9” migraine feels like. Not truly. And, how do I know one 9 is the same as another?
I don’t. I suppose that’s the subjective nature of pain; it not only varies between one person and another, it also varies between a person’s own experiences. And, without keeping a diary, I’m not sure how much I can rely on my memories.
But, I can’t keep a diary anymore. The daily reminder that I’m sick, that I have a “condition,” is too much to take. It renders me incapable of forgetting about the pain for even a moment. Some part of me is always monitoring my pain levels and my symptoms so I can record the day’s events accurately. There’s no forgetting. There’s no ignoring.
What works for you? Do you keep a diary? If so, what kind? (Online? Paper?) How long have you been writing in it, or when and why did you stop if you used to keep one?