It’s been awhile since I’ve had the strength to write here. While I’m striving to stay away from self-pity, I can’t shake my profound feelings of grief and frustration.
Since my last post, I have seen an ENT (as the migraine specialist recommended) to arrange an ENG and hearing screening to rule out possible causes, other than migraine, for my dizziness, near-syncope, vertigo, and tinnitus. Everything came back normal, however, the ENT now has me on a mix of drugs to rule out Meniere’s disease: apparently the only way to diagnose is to treat and see if it works. Welcome to the world of Dr. House.
I really can’t tell if the medicine is working or not. I’m still dizzy, still feel like passing out, and my ears still ring – though perhaps less than before. The most common side effect it seems, other than more weight loss from losing water, is that my ear now hurts.
The most painful thing for me to accept though, is that the hospital visit I’ve been debating upon since the migraine specialist recommended it is now no longer an option. I called him yesterday to ask some questions regarding the length of the stay and his expectations on the probability of the procedure breaking my cycle. However, once I told him the severe reactions I had to the DHE in the Migranal he gave me, he said he could no longer recommend the stay as the IV would likely produce the same (if not worse) results.
I hung up the phone feeling there must be some other type of IV that could work. The ones I’ve tried haven’t and, this other, well, I’m not allowed to try. Am I destined to an ever-changing but continually ineffective regimen of prescription preventatives and abortives?